Today we have a party with our friends and loved ones in honor of our impending departure. Wow! We are so well cared for and loved. All the love felt today is powerful. On the other hand, I panic at the idea of no longer seeing my people for a year, as I am a very sociable girl and see my friends regularly. I wonder if they will forget me. Would I still be their friend after returning from a long trip? Why do I impose all this on myself? Oh yes! My dream of seeing the world with my boyfriend! I can’t wait, it’s exciting! I’m emotionally mixed up!
I continue to push forward despite these contradictory emotions before departure!
Party before a big departure on a trip in our article A big departure on a trip when emotions are jostling emotionsHaving to leave friends and family, a lot of emotions to deal with before departure
5 days before departure on a trip for a year
Another important day today, but for much less happy reasons. Today, I have an appointment with the veterinarian to euthanize my cat who is sick. I’ve been crying non-stop since last night. I ask my boyfriend about every ten minutes if we are making the right choice. I question everything. This cat is like my child. If we didn’t leave, maybe she would still have a little time to live and tan in the sun. My boyfriend reminds me of what the veterinarian told us a month ago during an appointment that I had made to relieve myself of the guilt of this inevitable choice that was coming. The latter was very clear that our “Mimine” is seriously ill, that she is suffering more than she lets on and that our choice is the best. I doubt the same.
Mourning before a big departure on a trip in our article A big departure on a trip: when emotions are jostling granddepart departvoyage emotionsSome bereavements are more difficult to deal with before a big trip
I cry so much. I didn’t even know so many tears could come out. In addition, we have an interview this evening for a house sitting in Australia where we will take care of a… cat. I have no idea how I’m going to keep from crying and even be able to see them because my eyes are so puffy. We go to the vet’s appointment, we say goodbye to him for a long time, I ask him for forgiveness several times. This bereavement will be the most difficult to experience and overcome of all the bereavements that the preparation and departure for a year’s trip will have made me experience.
House sitting: House sitting for low-cost travel
Oh my God! Wow! We really do! I didn’t even think I’d make it. Time has flown so quickly these past few days. Pride invades me! Sadness too. Luckily, few people came to the airport, less chance of me crying. Everything is fine, we are going on the adventure that I repeat to myself.
At the airport, emotions before departure on a trip in our article A big departure on a trip: when emotions rush airport, where we experience our last emotions before departure. Such contradictory emotions.
Oh no! My mother-in-law starts to shed a few tears. I breathe deeply. I don’t even know if I still have tears anyway because I cried so much in the last few days. We check in. We head towards the stairs for safety. I remind myself not to look at my mother who is accompanying us to the said staircase. I turn and see her.
Automatically, I quickly come back down to hug him one last time before a year and I cry, of course. I tell him I love him for the hundred and fiftieth time. I’ve never told him I love you as much as in the last few weeks! I am currently feeling almost the entire spectrum of emotions at the same time in this short moment. It’s a really intense feeling!